The gaze that met my eyes : The story of the man born blind
‘Have you ever felt gazes? Like just the feeling.
I have.
In fact I couldn’t see since I was born but I could always feel a gaze.
Most of them were gazes of disgust, of judgement, or of the bad example.
‘Don’t you ever lie or steal Benyamin, you’ll end up like…
God’s 555 book: Grace underserved yet given freely
I been having an unusual wrestling match with God.
Having grown up as someone disciplined upbringing wise, I always understood the reward system very well, but find it hard to accept grace for myself.
When ‘paiseh’ goes a little too far: Learning to receive even when you feel shy
There’s a Hokkien term that I grew up hearing – the word ‘paiseh’.
In English, it simply means to be embarrassed, sorry or shy and can be used in various situations. For example, when you accidently stepped on someone’s feet, it is absolutely appropriate to say ‘paiseh, paiseh.’ Another reasonable use of this word…
The Surrender Box: A 7 step method to processing painful memories
Physical wounds hurt. And if left unattended, can cause some major damage to a person. Emotional wounds hurt, yet they are often not seen. Subsequently, these wounds, if left unattended, can cause serious damage and dysfunction.
We all go through bumps and bruises emotionally. Sometimes the issue is not that big, kinda like a scratch…
Persistent Love: When your ‘not good enough’ is still ‘not good enough’
I’m no love expert, but these days, the word ‘love’ has taken up many shapes and forms.
From the flippant – I love Ice Cream, to the idealized ‘love at first sight’ in Korean Dramas, the word love has been thrown around throughout the century, often without much thought.
Love has also been…
When you have to restart from zero: Finding perspective in the midst of loss and devouring
I stayed in the home of an elderly couple about 2 years ago. It was a beautiful experience, one that I will not easily forget. One of the highlights of staying with people who have gone through way more years than you, is the opportunity to sit and listen to their stories.
A letter to my younger self: 5 things I wish that my younger anxious self knew
I’ve crossed the 30+ mark in life. And when you’ve crossed that mark, people say life takes a bit more of a stabilizing turn. I think its true. Maybe it’s because one has learned more and wised up. Or maybe it’s because I have started caring less about the things that don’t matter so much.
Art and Creativity: Finding God’s Perspective for me as a Creative Person – a guided study of Exodus 31
God loves Creativity. Among the very first things He talks about in His word – even before He talks about mankind, is a detailed peek into the Creation of the heavens and the earth. He repeats His love for artistry in the book of Exodus, as He detailed the building of the tabernacle, the place…
Inner Healing Resources: Ministering to the wounded heart
We all have wounds. We all need inner healing and deliverance to a certain extend. I myself have been on this journey and still am on this journey. Throughout the journey I have had times where I reached a bit of a ceiling in my walk. It is during these times that I have sought…
5 Meaningful and Creative Ways to Occupy your Time during the Holiday Season!
The sunny holiday’s are here, and if you’re like me (20 years ago), holidays spell fun. I used to love holidays as a youth because it meant that I could go through all the ‘Famous Five’ and ‘Anne of Green Gables’ story books that I could cram in (about one a day) and do all…
What occupies your mind? Gazing Upwards and Learning to Wonder.
I used to gaze in wonder as a child, watching the wonder of a sunrise, or the beauty of a rainbow. I still gaze now and again, especially when I see an eagle soaring above me, or at some unique flower growing out of the cement (yes where I stay now gives me this privilege).
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A Masterpiece and no less
On a lovely white pillow in my room, is a cross-stitched art with these words from Ephesians 2:10 in the Bible ‘ For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things He planned for us long ago.’
One night, as I stared at…
When breakthrough tarries
Sometimes we wonder how long.
Sometimes we retreat out of anguish because the oppression just got worse.
Sometimes we question the length and process needed for our deliverance.
Sometimes we face counter attacks.
Developing Self Worth: Learning to be human again by enjoying daily simple pleasures
If there’s one thing I totally dislike, its to box up people. Standardization scares me. Whether its a school system that categorizes kids based on the number of correct questions they have or robots arranged in apocalyptic military fashion, I absolutely find boxing up humanity as a utter violation of basic human rights.
The journey// My God is God and my God is good
when we go through pain we wonder why. We wonder why God didn’t stop the pain. Was He not able, or did he not love me? I’ve been on that journey.
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